ughhhh

Today was a disaster.

Trivial: I lost the NFC championship on my Madden online franchise with my friends to my friend Gorzo. We played twice in the regular season and I beat him by a combined 40+ points between the two games. Today I threw two 90+ yard interceptions that he returned for TDs and it was just a disaster. Fuckin' disappointing.

Still trivial: I also was distracted this morning and didn't notice that Wes Welker was declared inactive at 11:50 AM, giving me plenty of time to bench him and start someone else. Did I? No - my head was in a different galaxy and I ended up playing him. Luckily my team is beasting (off the riesling) and I ended up cruising to another victory, but this so ISN'T LIKE ME.

Less than trivial: I've been a slob lately; eating whatever is put in front of me. This makes me sick to my stomach.

And this all ignores the non-trivial thing, that I don't want to talk about. Needless to say, it was not one of the more positive things that has happened in my life. I do my best these days to be a good person and I think I am suceeding at this, but there are times when I still need to question if I am being a jerk or being unnecessarily unreasonable.

Let's say that I have had to consider this today. By reading this blog you can probably tell that I am insanely self reflective and my own harshest critic, but I still don't think I have done anything that I shouldn't have lately. Yet still I can't help but feel like all my recent problems are no one's fault but my own?

I think some of my biggest problems as a human being work out for me for a long time before they ultimately bite me in the ass extra hard in the end. But I won't get in to that right now.

I don't know.