I can list many reasons why I should not be nervous right now. Good reasons, with solid justifications.
a) I have my speech memorized word for word. I know all the jokes.
b) I've given this speech four times to crowds already. I know people like it.
c) I've made so many modifications to the speech based on feedback - it's almost as perfect as it can be.
I've been thinking all week that this is no big deal - it's a victory lap, I told myself. You may remember, astute readers, that I did not make it to this final championship round. But the 2nd place finisher of the last competition had another commitment and I backed in as an alternate. I agreed, as this is a good opportunity for me. They said there will be approximately 150 people there. Which doesn't really matter - I kinda zone out once the first word comes out of my mouth. I only scan and find a few people to make eye contact with, anyway... along with quick glances at the timekeeper. So the crowd isn't an issue.
But here I am: noon - approximately 4 hours away from the speech and I'm a little nervous.
I think I'll be fine - I know I will be. My nerves aren't even close to where they were from 8-10AM yesterday, when it felt like an entire butterfly sanctuary was being preserved in my midsection. So I'll make it.
I will just have to do my best to convincingly deliver a speech about how happy I am to be single when I have other things on my mind. :)
No comments:
Post a Comment