brain-dump

Been awhile since I did something like this - I've had a lot of focused posts the last few months. No hodgepodge.

I was thinking this morning, as I was shoveling (for nearly an hour) what a stupid idiot I am. I balk at a snowblower for being $600 but then I drop $500 on two watches in a heartbeat. Granted, I've been chasing the expensive one all over for months now like it either a) owed me money or b) i was in love with it, but that's besides the point. Wouldn't the snowblower help me more?, I said to myself as I was shoveling 8 inches of heavy snow. But then I came to the conclusion that no - no it would not. This is good for me. I feel good coming in to work now. It's apparently enough exercise to get the endorphins kicking. I forgot what it felt like last summer when I would run 4.25 miles before work every morning. You're just more awake. I can get used to it. But please stop snowing. Please.

This is my first Christmas in a few years without a girlfriend. Break from big gifts, right? Well, I thought so. No jewelery for sure, right? Also, thought that too. But for the first time in my life, my mom has specifically requested something from me. She wants a bracelet. A silver Pandora charm bracelet (and just a few charms, nothing major she says). Turns out they mark up the price of the charms for Christmas and apparently they are $100 a piece? Greaaatt. She never asks for anything and I love her, so it's not even a question of spending the money, but I thought I was skating this year. No. No I am not.

My 15 year old girl status update: (which I may or may not have recently seen on my niece's wall) You can forget what someone said to you, you may even forget what someone did to you, but you will never forget the way someone made you feel. I like that. It hit me for some reason.

Do you know what I hate? When people lie to my face and think I'm an idiot. Let's hypothetically say that someone has had 3 days blocked off on their calendar for over a month now. Despite claiming they weren't taking any vacation days for the rest of the year. Now let's further assume that this hypothetical individual calls my phone yesterday morning at 8:00AM and then calls my hypothetical coworkers phone when I don't answer. And this person, this sparkling gem, says that she will be out the next 3 days because the Dr. has "pulled her from work." Oh, really? What a god damn glorious coincidence that it coincides with the three days you had blocked off your calendar for a month. And why 3 days? Oh, because anything more than 3 requires a Dr.'s note? GET OUT OF TOWN. I'm glad you think that I, and others, are stupid enough to buy this. I hope you choke on whatever it is you're putting in your mouth.

Also on the do-not-like list: 100% of the population is allowed to think that I am not special. That I am the same as everyone else. 99% of them can say it to my face with no consequences whatsoever. But if you are in the 1% and you do say it to me? That can kind of ruin everything. Remarkable.